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My Heart

9 Jul

Anger and frustration are my companions today.  

“Today if you hear my voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion, on the day of testing in the wilderness, where your fathers put me to the test and saw my works for forty years.”

But Lord, You don’t understand.  This is not fair. I am right.  This part of me has to be hard.

“Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an, evil, unbelieving heart, leading you to fall away from the living God.”

I’m not falling away, Lord, and my heart isn’t unbelieving.  I’m just protecting myself.  Walls are built for a reason.  You know why…

“Do not be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin.”

“Let us therefore strive to enter that rest so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience.  For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of our hearts. And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account.”

The Lord asks me to lay down hard things, feelings and insecurities that I’ve carried for a long time.  I’m resisting.  I don’t want to change.  I’m comfortable with my baggage, or so I’ve believed.  Lately it’s been causing me to hurt a little too much and in turn I’ve been causing others to hurt.  Sounds about right doesn’t it?

Sin never affects just one person.  There’s always a ripple.

I know what I have to do but my “heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick…”

But his mercies are new every morning, aren’t they?

The weeping of the night only lasts for a while and then you get to see hope; dawn breaking open the night sky.  And you start over…

Soften my heart, Lord, is my prayer.