The day was hard and it started when I woke up late. The getting my husband out the door rush bled over to the hurry and make breakfast for the little people so we can start school drama. Quiet time was skipped over in favor of paying bills while silently screaming about the lack of groceries in the pantry.
Frustration abounded and grace was looked over in the busy mess of life.
Have you ever had one of those mornings?
Unfortunately this morning lasted all day. Isn’t it interesting that when one person in the family is off kilter the whole group is thrown awry? My mood affected my husband which trickled down to the children and from there the snow that first fell as a flake became a barreling ball rolling break-neck down the mountain.
It’s a cycle isn’t it, this sin trap? Sometimes we choose the trap because these are “acceptable sins” that seem to remain unnoticed by others and we think it’s easier to keep running in circles than to step out and walk the straight line.
But He says, “For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.” Mt. 7:14 ESV
The way that leads to life is hard. *sigh* Yes, yes it is.
And so as I stood at my kitchen sink, doing the fourth load of the day, lamenting about the state of my house and the bills that still needed to be paid, I had a moment…the kind of moment where you know that God is moving in your heart and aligning your spirit with His.
It’s painful, seeing your sin in the light, but so, so sweet to know that it has already been covered by the blood of Christ.
It was a moment of grace. Life was going round just like before, the tasks were still there waiting, but my heart was moved, changed. I plunged my hands back into the soapy water and saw with fresh, grace-washed eyes: my son sharing my love for reading at the kitchen table, my daughter dancing to the worship music streaming from the computer, and the look of concentration on my husband’s face as he learns a new song to share with our students…
And I smiled as He whispered, “Behold, I am making all things new…”.
Yes, even me, Lord.